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Monday, December 31, 2007

Just a few things

(my sister said I needed to start putting titles on my posts, so there you go)

My husband is reading The Hobbit to my four year old daughter at bedtime. I think it is a little too old for her but he was really excited about it so he is going for it. Then today a girl came to the door selling girl scout cookies and Lillian stood there quietly watching her, like she was thinking of something to say to this older girl that she had never met. Then, Lillian announces "I have big, harry feet." Then she turned and ran back into the house. I was laughing so hard I could hardly fill out the form and when I tried to tell Chris what I said I couldn't get it out. Oh, that girl. She kills me.

Isaac, who is 10 months old now, is saying a few words. When he sees Chris he says da or dadada. It is pretty adorable. I am na-na. Or, I should probably say that is what he says when he wants to nurse. He is also waving and clapping and pointing. Also, copying everything his big sister does. If she makes a noise, he makes it right back. Already I can tell I am in a lot of trouble. He loves her more than anything. She just wants to play with all of his toys and not share any of her own. Then, she wants to lay on him and see how mad she can make him before I make her leave him alone. All this before he can even walk.

I am not making any new years resolutions again this year. I think I started this last year. I never keep them, so it is just easier if I don't make any. Then, I can't fail. One less thing to feel guilty about. I can't wait to see what is in store for us this year. It is going to be a good one, filled with lot of big changes. I can't wait to get started!

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

My poor baby was sick today. Of course it would happen on the crazy warm day we had today. It was supposed to be 73 degrees here today! So no riding bikes or playing at the park. We spent the entire morning in front of the television. This is the first time my daughter in her 4 years of life has been sick with the stomach flu. That is a good thing because I can't handle it very well. Cleaning sick up off of the bathroom floor is enough to make me want to jump ship- and be sick myself. I don't know how she does it, but by this evening you would never know anything was ever wrong except for the pink shirt, purple pants and yellow socks she was wearing. I think for her the worst part of the day was having to miss school. She cried when I told her she would have to stay home.

Today was one of those days that you don't really imagine when you don't have kids. The day when you have planned to run errands while your daughter is happily playing dolly house with her best friend. Errands that MUST be done today. Perhaps stopping by for a coffee on the way home. Or a cranberry limeade. Instead you are at home cleaning up puke from a green child while a baby is on the floor outside of the bathroom screaming because he wants to come in, too. Then spending the rest of the afternoon nursing a baby to sleep just to have him wake up and cling to you the moment you put him in bed. Hey, Isaac- you aren't a newborn anymore! You are 10 months old! Go. To. Sleep!

Then around four o'clock everyone wakes up cheerful and hungry and the horrors of the afternoon forgotten. We went to Wal-Mart with Lillian in her crazy clothes and finished my errands. We even stopped and got a cranberry limeade.

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

What do you think?






I was a bit suprised by this. I got her a couple of times using different pictures. My husband, though, got Katherine Hepburn. That cracks me up. I can't wait to show him. Thanks to Stephanie over at Adventures in Babywearing for the great idea.

Saturday, December 1, 2007

Blank calendar?

I was reading some posts recently about the worst Christmas gift you ever received. I have had to really think back because there aren't a lot of gifts that really stand out to me one way or the other. I really enjoy giving more than receiving and my favorite memories of Christmas are of the time spent with my family playing games and things. I have, however, received some pretty unusual gifts that I think are worth mentioning. My mother-in-law always tries to have a kind of theme or meaning behind her gifts. So what was the meaning when I got some shampoo and conditioner? Not even nice shampoo, the cheapest brand you can buy. Uh, thanks! Also, one year she got me a calendar that you have to fill in. I don't mean the kind you can put your own pictures on- I mean the kind that you have to actually fill the dates in for each month. Isn't that kind of the point of calendars? That you don't have to sit down and fill them out? One year when I was a teenager my great aunt bought my brother and sister candy and I got a toothbrush. What is that about? What are you people trying to tell me?

What was your worst/funniest Christmas present ever?

Sunday, November 25, 2007

We just got back from my parents house. I was a 7 hour drive in mostly rain, but it was actually a nice drive. I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving, I did. My only question is, who came and messed up my house while I was gone? If you did it, will you please come over and clean it up, because I don't remember my floors needing swept this badly. I am off to take a long soak with a tall stack of magazines and a thick book.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

It is raining leaves. It is just beautiful and magical. I wish I was a better writer so that I could adequately describe the scene. It is also raining. I love the rain except if I have to go somewhere. Then, I hate the rain. I love to cuddle up on the couch with a book and a hot/cold drink and a quilt and listen to the thunder and the rain drops. I do not like feeling soggy and damp.

On other news, the other two teeth have came in and things are going better. I guess it was a teething issue. I still clench every time in case he bites, which he has still done a few times, but things are definitely better. When he bites, I take him off and tell him no and try not to smile at his cute face. He thinks I am being funny, I guess, but he always smiles big at me and his little teeth and dimples are too cute to be upset with.

My daughter, Lillian, who just turned four, has discovered online games. Everyday she comes and asks if she can play a game on the computer. So far it has been Noggin games which are cute and easy enough. If anyone knows of some good preschool games or preschool friendly websites, let me know so she can switch it up a bit.

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

I am trying to still nurse Isaac, who is now 8 months old and who has two very sharp teeth and two more coming in, but really, I am starting to look down the road and wonder if I can keep it up. I don't remember being this sore with Lillian when she was teething. I am going to stick it out for a little while longer and see if maybe we are just at a difficult time. If maybe in a week or few weeks I will hardly remember it. It can't last forever. That is what I keep telling myself. What happens, though, when those other two teeth come in?

Friday, October 26, 2007

Happy Birthday!

My baby is 4 years old today. I can hardly believe it! We are doing a whole lot of nothing today. The weather is not great so we can't go anywhere and as much as she may want to, we are not going to the dentist. She has said every time I asked what she wanted to do today that she wanted to go to the dentist. Well, you went Wednesday, that's enough for this week. I don't get it. Anyway, we have just been trying to ready the house for the party tomorrow but with a clingy 8 month old, that hasn't really been happening, either. I did, however, make the best pot of coffee that I think I have ever had so that is exciting for me, but for Lillian not so much. Tonight we are going out for pizza and maybe a smoothie afterward so that should be fun. Then, of course, the party tomorrow and a church function all evening so that will be a fun day for her. Don't tell her, but she is getting a bike. I think she is really going to be excited and we can even bring it with us that night. I'll post some pictures soon if I can get my act together and charge my camera battery.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Wordless Wednesday

What happens when you tell your husband you might be late.

Friday, October 5, 2007

Our Army career is almost over. I'm still not sure how I feel about this. It will be just a few months and we will be living like civilians again. It will be so nice to go back home and live close to family. My son has only been around his grandparents a couple of times in his 7 months. We can buy a house and settle down and not have to worry about orders coming in out of the blue to move us to another part of the world. My husband can have a normal schedule. He can be home the same time every day and not have to leave us for days or even 15 months at a time. All of this make me very happy and excited.

At the same time, I have been an Army wife for almost 6 years and it is part of my identity now. I am very proud to be an Army wife. I know about things like AR's (Army regulations) and M4's (which you are not allowed to call a gun- it is a weapon). I am still figuring some things out but show me an Army movie and I will show you all the mistakes in their uniform. I was really looking forward to adventures like living in Germany or Alaska that I never got to experience. I love, love, love it here. I have great friends and a church that I don't know what I will do without. There are drawbacks to being in the Army, there are great benefits. We have amazing health insurance. We never pay a dime for anything including prescriptions and over the counter medicine. My husband gets 30 days off a year plus lots of paid holidays. Monday is Columbus Day so he gets a four day weekend! How great is that? Can we give all this up to have him home safe and sound? I think it is a price we are more than willing to pay.

Monday, October 1, 2007

Boys stink

My baby stinks. I am beginning to be embarrassed to be near him in public. He has gas something awful. I'm talking really bad, really stinky. It lingers. He is only 7 months! I don't know what to do about it. He is eating regularly and everything else is still baby smelling, if you catch my drift, but this is just awful. We went to the science center on Sunday and kept smelling something. We knew someone had gas but kept blaming it on the other kids that were there. Then I noticed it was following us around, this bad odor. I checked his diaper and it was fine but he was just so smelly. Like a cat that passes gas and then goes to the other room where the air is fresher. I have never smelled something like that come out of such a sweet baby! I had to put him in another room for awhile before I passed out or started having hallucinations. I just don't want people to think it is me! I don't want to be blamed for his foulness!

Anyway, enough gross talk.

I have read the best book recently! The author is Ted Dekker and he is a Christian author who writes thriller novels. The book that I read is called Showdown. It is about a battle between good and evil, as are many of his novels. It is about a town called Paradise and evil walks down main street one day and turns their lives upside down. I am reading another of his novels now, called Skin. So far, it is really good. It is pretty creepy and I can't put it down. If you have never read one of his books, I would suggest picking it up. It is good to finally read a Christian novel that has some really good edgy writing in it. The only problem with his books are the same as I have with all good books, I read them too fast.

Friday, September 28, 2007

On the way home from dinner tonight:

Lillian- I know what I want for my birthday!
me- What?
Lillian- a horn
me- um, no, I don't think so.
Lillian- a flute?
me- no
Lillian- a trumpet?
me- nope
Lillian- a tuba?

Monday, September 24, 2007

Happy Fall!



Happy Fall,ya'll! Here, it is still in the 90's but it is about time to pull out those long sleeved shirts and fuzzy socks. I already made a big pot of chili and am deciding what kind of comfort food to make next while getting in all the bar-b-que in while I still can. This picture was taken standing in front of my parents house. This is what I call a view! My mom is a lucky, lucky woman.

Friday, September 21, 2007

Yesterday was my birthday, but I was too busy to post. Last night family members called to see if I had a good day. Well, no. Not really. It was just another Thursday that happened to be September 20, the day I was born. We went to the library for story and craft time then came home and had lunch. After lunch my daughter went to preschool and I came home and did some house work. Then it was time for my daughter to be picked up from preschool and we came home and played awhile and then cooked dinner. I put Isaac in the bath while Lillian ate dinner and then she got in the bath and put them both to bed early at 7:30. About 8:00 my husband got home from a long, long day at work. He brought me roses and a German chocolate cake and we had dinner together, which was very nice to have alone for once. Almost felt like a date! I remember being a kid and the entire day felt special and magical but now it just feels like any other day.

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Today is my husbands first day back at work after his surgery. I haven't been able to get him to sit still the entire time. He is still using his crutches, but can get around quite well on them. We have had a trying couple of weeks, though. Car trouble. Those two words can make anyone cringe. We are (still) in the process of buying a minivan and we were test driving one last week that we really like. My husband went to test drive it again and find out what we can get for a trade in for my car. He called me to say that he wanted to think about it for another night, which was frustrating enough but then about 30 minutes later he called back to say that our car broke down as he was leaving the dealership. AAAHHH!!! Our car is a good car and never really has problems except for this problem. The same thing happened this time last year except last time my husband was in Iraq so that was a lot more stressful! Anyway, if we would have just bought the van we wouldn't have had to deal with this situation and put money into a car that we are getting rid of anyway. So beyond frustrating!

On a plus side, we had our second Mops meeting today! Who-ho for Mops! We had a couple come teach us some self-defense techniques and now I really want to learn Muay-Thai. It is something that I hope I will never have to use, but I really can't wait to show my husband what I learned and 'practice' on him. Uh, as long as I stay away from that knee!

Friday, September 7, 2007

I live in a house of zombies. It started with my husband. He sleeps with his eyes open. I know, freaky, right? It's not all the time, but it looks like he is looking at me. Then it was my daughter. Her eyes are just open like slits. Again, only sometimes. Then today, I went to check on Isaac while he was napping and I was not so shocked to find him with his eyes open while he was sleeping. My mission is to capture this on camera.

Thursday, September 6, 2007

at dinner:

Lillian: what is this?
me: lasagna
Lillian: What's on me!?

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

We had a great weekend. We both love it when my family comes to visit. I am so lucky that my husband likes my family so much. My husband and my dad are such buddies and he has so much fun with them all. My brother-in-law wasn't able to come as planned so he was missed. (I have to say that, my sister reads this blog! Just kidding!) It seemed, though, that the weekend was a little cursed. When they got here, it took an hour for them to get the visitor's pass to come onto the Army post that usually takes all of 10 minutes. Then, our garbage disposal clogged up mysteriously. *coughchriscough* Then, our grill ran out of propane just as we were putting the burgers on and when I went to flip them, the whole grill fell in. The burgers were fine and quite tasty, if I do say so myself. So all in all, a pretty good weekend. To short as always, but good. Except for the rest of Monday, after they left, I was so sad and pouty.

It made both of us really realize how badly we want to move back. In about a years time, a year and a half at the most, and we will be back. The Lord willing, of course. We don't know what to expect after we separate from the Army, but we are planning on good things. I am already looking at houses and doing some planning and dreaming. I just can't wait to live at least within an hour of my family as opposed to 7 hours. That will be such a dream come true. It is really something that I took for granted when we lived close. Being gone for these last few years has really shown me how much we love our home. We love here, too, though so I am already sad to leave. I want to just move my family here. I guess that would really be ideal, but I don't really think they would go for it.

So, tomorrow is the big surgery. We really aren't stressed about it at all. It should only take 30 minutes, so we aren't looking at it as being more than a doctors appointment. I am going to stay until Chris is out and then I am leaving because tomorrow is the first day of MOPS! I just can't even say how excited I am for this! I have been more excited in my life plenty of times, but I am still pretty excited. And Chris really doesn't seem nervous at all so that is good, I guess. He already has the crutches and the pain killers so we will see how it all goes tomorrow. He will be home for 2 weeks and then I guess we will see how much he works after that. I am so glad that he gets to be home for awhile. I love having him home. Even though he is going to be doped up on pain meds for the next little bit. My goal during the next couple of days is to have him write a blog post. We'll see how that goes! Until then!

Saturday, September 1, 2007

Yay for family! My family is coming to visit today. Well, most of them. My mom and dad and sister (Hi, D!) are going to be here shortly. This is the second time in the last month that we have had family come to visit us. We are blessed. The only difference is that this time we will be sad when it is time for them to go...

Nothing really planned except watching the kids grow. And eating. There will be lots of eating.

Tuesday, August 28, 2007


Not a lot going on around here, hence very few and far between posts. My baby is trying to crawl. Somehow everything new that he has done lately, I have missed. My husband has been the one to tell me and then I can watch for it. Anyway, he is up on hands and knees sometimes. He is finally becoming a bit more independent so that I can set him down for short periods of time without him wailing. He is 6 months now. Wow! I just can't believe it. His half birthday was yesterday. I remember when Lillian was 6 months and my sister called to wish her a happy half-birthday. How different life was back then, over 3 years ago!

At church Sunday night someone looked at me shocked that I was holding a baby and said that she didn't even realize that I was pregnant! She decided it was because I didn't look pregnant. Hmmm... ya, that must be it. (see pic above. i couldn't move it for some reason)

One piece of news around here is that my husband will soon be hobbling around. Well, hobbling more than normal. He is having surgery on his knee next week, so that should be fun. Another person to take care of, not to sound selfish or anything.

Sunday, August 19, 2007

IT'S HOT!

It is so hot. We have been stuck inside like it is the dead of winter because it is so hot. There is a drought and our grass is dead because it is so hot. On Thursday, our air conditioner went out and I thought I was going to roast inside my own house because it is so hot. I can't wait for things to cool off a bit. The sign outside our church says "and you think this is hot?" That really made me giggle.

I am glad that everything that comes with fall is starting up again. I need some structure and more activities to keep us all occupied. MOPS is getting underway soon, and until then we are busy planning and preparing. AWANA is starting in a few weeks, too, so that will be nice. We have started going back to church on Wednesday night after taking a break from it after my son was born in February. I am really looking forward to it. Plus, our church has dinner before church every Wednesday, so that combined with MOPS in the morning makes Wednesday a busy but nice day. Almost like a day off.

Don't know what MOPS is? MOPS is Mothers of Preschoolers. There is one near you. Go to MOPS.org and you can do a search or find out how to start one yourself. It is a great program of mothers supporting mothers, getting out of the house for some mommy time while your child enjoys themselves in another room. There is something for everyone- crafts, fellowship, food.

Thursday, August 9, 2007

You Belong in Fall

Intelligent, introspective, and quite expressive at times...
You appreciate the changes in color, climate, and mood that fall brings
Whether you're carving wacky pumpkins or taking long drives, autumn is a favorite time of year for you



I love taking quizes. This is pretty right on, I guess. I do love fall, except that it means winter is on its way. I get excited every year at seeing the trees change. The description is pretty acurate, too.

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

National Night Out




Last night was not a total blast. Lillian had fun going down the huge inflatable slide and running around with her friends. But for the rest of us, it was just really, really hot with not enough food. It wasn't all bad. We had a nice time visiting with some friends and Chris got hit on by a little girl and her mother. We entered a drawing for a lawn mower (we really need a new one!) so we had to stay until the very end to see if we had won, which of course we didn't. Isaac got his first ride in a real swing. Even though we didn't have the best time, I am glad that we went and I will probably go again next year because it is nice that the community has these kinds of events for us and has them for free and also, the kids really did have a lot of fun.

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

Today was my baby girl's first day of pre-school. (Don't tell her I called her baby girl) She seemed to have a good time and had lots to tell. She played with play-dough and painted. She didn't get to go outside, though, because all the teachers said it was too hot. Two boys got into a fight and one got in trouble. She said she forgot to learn and was pretty distraught. I think she wanted to go back to learn. I told her she probably did, just didn't realize it.

And what did I do with my time? I did my Bible study, folded some laundry and watched People's Court. Not really the relaxing day that I had envisioned, but it was nice and quiet. Now, I only need to plan Isaac's naps on this same time frame and I will be all set!

Tonight is National Night Out. We are going to our community center for some fun and food. Probably hot dogs, but it will be fun. That is, if my husband gets home from work on time, which is really not likely to happen since we have plans. I guess I shouldn't complain, he did have a four day weekend. We didn't do much, mostly stayed home and enjoyed each other, which is nice. Chris and I played games and we went swimming yesterday. It was a very relaxing, enjoyable weekend.

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

short, short stories

By: Lillian

Once upon a time there was a beautiful mermaid call Ceochana mermaid.Then her mom washed her clothes in the washing machine so she could be so pretty. And then she said"Mom, your so pretty. Thank you for washing my clothes, they are so beautiful." Then she said, "Mom, I'm ready to go to bed." And then she said, "Mom, can you sing me a good-night song. Can I wash my teeth and take a bath, please?" Then she had to take a bath. She said, "I will stay in bed, Mommy. I will see you in the morning and then my daddy will be here." The End

Once upon a time there was a beautiful princess called Sleeping Doobie and her moms name was Cinderella and her sisters name was Snow White and her fathers name was Followtheleaderconchonda. The End

We have been trying to get our 5 month old to fall asleep by himself at night. I have been reading up on all the latest ways of doing this. They all seem about the same to me. I know I am tired of nursing him to sleep and then as soon as I lay him down he wakes up. We have tried the cry it out method, but it makes me feel jittery. So we are taking what we like from a few different methods and basically doing what we have already been doing. There was an article recently in Parenting magazine about different methods and this pretty much makes up my research on the subject. With our daughter we pretty much let her cry it out and had planned to do the same with Isaac but now we remember that he is not Lillian the second, he is Isaac and we have to do things in the way that is best for him, not what worked for Lillian. That is a hard lesson to learn. But anyway, last night he cried for about 30 minutes before finally conking out. So, we will see how it goes the next few nights. I don't know if my poor heart can take it.

I signed Lillian up for part-day preschool today. She starts on Tuesday and we are all so excited! It will be only on Tuesday and Thursday for 3 hours but I am totally looking forward to it. She needs more of an outlet to be around other kids and not around me. She keeps reminding me that I can not stay with her, I can only drop her off. Like I need reminding. So this fall we will have school Tuesday and Thursday afternoons, MOPS on Wednesdays and church Wednesday night and Sunday morning and AWANA Sunday night. So this will give us a nice break from each other. Although, she is moving into the Sunday School class that I am assistant teacher in, so that will be interesting. This all sounds like we don't really like each other very much, but that sure isn't the case. She is almost 4 now and really needs to be independent. We are both ready for a few hours apart and this will ease us into regular school as next year she will be in pre-k every day for a few hours.

We also went to the pool today where Lillian spent most of the time pouting because her friend was playing with another little girl instead of her. When does this go away? When do kids learn to play with more than one person at a time? Why is Lillian seem to always be the one left out? I told her to just go play with them- they weren't excluding her- or just find someone else to play with but she just didn't seem to feel like she fit in with them.

We are looking forward to a good extended weekend this week. My husband 'might' have Friday off and will have Monday off, too, so that should be fun. Maybe more van shopping, maybe some water park fun, for sure some being lazy around the house. Should be lots of fun!

Saturday, July 28, 2007

Alright, I finally finished The Deathly Hallows on Thursday. What a bad HP fan I must be to take 6 whole days to read it! I'm not going to put my thoughts in too much detail because I wouldn't want to spoil it for anybody, and because my husband will read this and I won't tell him what happens. All I will say is, I loved it. It took awhile for it all to sink in, but it is a great book. I can't wait to see what else she writes. She says that nothing will ever be like Harry Potter and she is probably right, but she is still a great author and I'm sure that whatever she writes will be great.

I'm going to try some new Italian recipes this week. I got a cook book from the library and I really want to keep it! I am really excited about trying them. I was a little overwhelmed, looking through it and trying to pick one to try so I let Chris pick a couple. He picked about 4 and I went with two of them that seemed pretty simple. I am really happy with the ones that he picked, too, because they were some of the ones that seemed the best to me. I need to find a good garden vegetable sauce recipe to try too so I can trick my daughter (and my husband) into eating more vegetables. I am really excited to try some of the soup recipes, but I think I will wait until cooler weather for the soup. I am just going to have to get this book or one like it. Ya to trying new things!

My daughter has been playing restaurant lately and yesterday she served me cherry pie for dinner, something called cacalou- which is cooked fish with a cherry inside- for desert along with chocolate soup. After I 'ate' the fish, though, she told me it had gone bad so I didn't give her any money.

Saturday, July 21, 2007

Growing up

My husband, who is the greatest ever, has taken down the bassinet. I feel like this is such a big move for my baby, going from a baby bassinet to a crib. The bassinet was right next to our bed and the crib is about two feet away, still in our bedroom because there just isn't enough room in Lillians room for the both of them and I don't want them waking each other up in the middle of the night. I just walked in the house about 10 minutes ago and went to check it all out and it made me feel really weepy. It was my daughters bed and I love it. It is a beautiful crib. Plain, but beautiful. I took him to it and put him in it to show it to him. Chris put his tiny dog in that he likes to sleep with so I showed him that it would still be in there with him. My baby is growing up. And I want to know who stretched my daughter!

My Harry Potter book arrived just as I was walking out the door this morning. The mailman made sure that I knew it was here because he knew I was probably waiting for it. I thought that was sweet. I haven't opened the box yet. I am afraid. Once I open that box a few things will happen. One is that I will not want to spend any time with my family until I am finished and the other thing is that I will never get to read a Harry Potter book for the first time again. My goodness! That sounds so melodramatic!

Also going on in my life right now, we are looking into buying a minivan. We really like the Dodge Grand Caravan. I am so proud of my husband for wanting to take this step because he never wanted one and now his is all about the soccer-mobile. My husband is growing up!

Friday, July 20, 2007

Nearly there!

Just about 2 hours and 15 minutes until Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows is released. And am I going to a release party? No. Am I waiting in line for 30 hours for a book? Nope. I ordered my book a few weeks ago from Amazon to be delivered Saturday- only after I read all the fine print in the guarantee that it will be on my doorstep the day it comes out or it's free. Am I staying up all day and night reading it? Probably not. I am doing a (4th) re-read of the series and I'm not even half way finished with the Order of the Phoenix yet. WAY miscalculated how much time I would need. The plan is to go ahead and plow through them in order. Any bets that when it ends up on my doorstep tomorrow I will forget about all 6 previous books and dive right in?

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Dinner a la toilet

I recently saw a signature, I think it was on the baby center chat room, that said something like I breastfeed in public, but feel free to take your meal to the restroom. I just loved it. I wanted to have it for myself. I remember when Lillian was nursing and I was a new mom I was so scared of people seeing me nurse. I had never noticed women nursing in public and I always felt like there was a big spotlight on me. In hindsight, I see now that the fact that I had never notice any nursing mothers should have shown me that no one would probably notice me either. But I was too scared and timid and my husband was uncomfortable so I was uncomfortable. So I hid in bathrooms and dressing rooms or in my car. Then, I tried it. I think we were at a restaurant and we were a little secluded and no one said anything and my husband (bless him) didn't feel like everyone in the whole restaurant was thinking about my boobs or something like he was afraid of. Now, it is no big deal. It is so much not a big deal that I can't believe it ever was a big deal. There is a lady at my church and she nursed everywhere. I met her while I was pregnant with my baby, Isaac, and she really was/is an inspiration to me. In the middle of church she would nurse and she didn't feel like she needed to sit in the back and hide. I saw her walking around while she was nursing, which to me is like a miracle because I just can't figure that out. So after I had the baby I just went for it. I just nursed where ever I was and didn't act embarrassed and now, people tell me that I am so good at it- that they don't even notice that I am nursing. I still feel a bit, something- self-conscious?, but that is just me. I am very timid about my body, about people really noticing me or anything that draws attention to me or my body and I will just always be this way but something has changed in me. I asked my husband why he feels comfortable now with me nursing in public and he said, "I don't know. I guess I grew up." Maybe that is it with me, too. I view myself as a woman now. An actual card-carrying adult and if you have a problem with my son eating, go ahead and take your meal into the toilet.

Monday, July 16, 2007

Fun weekend

This weekend was such a nice, relaxing one. I went out with a friend for coffee on Saturday and then just sat around the house with my family the rest of the day. I don't know what it is about going out with a friend with out (most) of my family that recharges me so much. I pretty much have to bring Isaac along with me where ever I go since he is nursing ALL THE TIME. Even though while we were out we were pretty much talking about our families, the time away makes it so nice to go home and see them again. It's like taking a nice deep breath of fresh air.

Then on Sunday, we went to church. Lillian was so happy to see her Sunday School teacher after going out of town last week and not getting to see her. She was so excited and I have to admit, I was too. I miss my church when we are gone. Also, this Sunday was the first in our brand new sanctuary. It was so pretty and light and roomy. I think the best thing about it, though (besides the better air conditioning), was that it was almost full. I think that really is special, to open a new building and the first week be able to fill it up. We had a nice dinner after the service and I ate some wonderful peach cobbler because as everyone knows, church dinners are always the absolute best! After church, we all went home and took a nap. Lillian in her bed and the rest of us on the couch cuddled together. Then, we went to the splash park so that Lillian could run around but when we got there, she decided it would be better to run to the park and then back to us on the bench so that she was back about every 30 seconds. My husband had to actually go out and get her wet before she would play.

So now, it's Monday and my husband is back at work and I have to catch up on all of the house work that I neglected over the weekend which now that I look around isn't too much, really. Mostly my nemesis, laundry. My daughter decided she wanted to take a shower and my son is napping. I think I will take advantage of the quiet and be lazy a little more while I wait for the dryer and try to catch up on my reading.

Friday, July 13, 2007

Summer blues

So, we have had a pretty relaxing week. I am a little bummed that my husbands leave is almost over. He has to be back to work on Monday. I just really like having him around the house. We have had a lot of fun the last week, hanging out and being lazy, going to the park and the swimming pool. I had so many more plans for his leave, I just don't know how time goes by so fast. I guess it is just like summer. I feel like it just started but really it is about half over. While we do not have any school age children yet, everything closes down when school starts. I feel like I have a case of summer time blues. Who sings that song? Alan Jackson? Anyway, I just feel sort of melancholy today and I am trying really hard to shake this funk. Anyone have any suggestions?

On a different note, my son is rolling over onto his tummy all the time now. It makes him so mad, which is just funny. He loves his toys in a way that my daughter never did. He rolls to try and get them and eat them. I think that is what is going through his head pretty much all the time. "I want to eat it." I say this out loud for him in a Dracula sort of voice. Or maybe an Igor sort of voice. I don't think it really amuses anyone but me, but I find it hilarious.

Happy Friday the 13th. Watch some scary movies.

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Average Day

So, today started out as an average day. My husband is on leave and so we decided to go to the water park for the afternoon. It was a lot of fun- we floated around the river, walked under the rain and went down some really fast water slides. The best part of the day, though, was when my daughter showed me how she can go under the rope- and she swam under it! My little girl just figured out how to swim today. I guess my husband showed her and now she can swim. Of course, she doesn't know that it works in other parts of the pool besides under the rope and it is only for a couple of feet, but I was amazed! That is a major accomplishment, if you ask me, and a great part of my day.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Ok, wow, I have a blog! I really am excited for the chance to branch out and write. So first maybe just a little about myself. I love to read blogs and I never (hardly) leave a comment because somehow I feel like I am intruding. I am a wife to my great husband, Chris, who is in the Army. I am also a mommy to two little cuties, ages 3 and a half and 4 months. I am very involved in our church and also my local MOPS group. Uh, wow! Who knew that I could sum my life up in just a few short sentences. So how about a cute quote from my daughter- "I love you, Mommy. Your the best mommy I ever had. Now tell me that I am the best daugther you ever had."